Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Change

I don’t know why, but I have never really handled change, good or bad, very well. As a child, I could hardly wait until the Christmas holiday, but when it came, I was often disappointed-not about the gifts I received, but because my other toys were now my “old” toys, and my new toys were the replacements, and I remember being depressed for a good part of the day. What makes this even worse is the fact that no one I knew ever felt this way-I was definitely a loner in this department.

Now I don’t feel the same as I once did about holidays, thank goodness, but I still am not a big fan of change. For example, I rarely ever rearrange my furniture because I get used to things being a certain way and it’s comfortable, but when things have to change (like when we got our new living room set), at first I begrudgingly go along with it, but in the end I’m happy.

On a more personal level, I am not happy with the changes I see in my mirror every day, and even though I know that getting older is just a part of life, and the alternative is so much worse, the woman that looks back at me is so different from the girl who still resides in my mind-except for the occasional ache and pain, I still feel like that young girl. Does everyone else feel the same way?

And when it comes to putting myself out there and moving beyond my comfort zone, even if I know it’s for the best, it’s downright nerve racking, and sometimes I can be hard on myself. I just take a deep breath and with a little bit of faith I tackle my latest “adjustment.” Whether it’s developing a blog, entering a new writing competition, or trying something new, deep down I know that each and every change is truly a learning experience, and learning is not such a bad thing.

Now you might be wondering about my topic of choice for this evening’s post, and I will keep you waiting no longer. I am once again trying something new in the writing arena-I will be a guest blogger on Diary of a Mad Bathroom this Friday. DG was looking for some funny posts about nutty family members that she could host on her sight every Friday in February. Well I jumped at the chance for a boatload of reasons: I am a big fan of DG’s very witty writing style (her blog is always a "must read" for me), I have more than my fare share of unique family members, and I was looking for a new writing experience. I chose to recount a story involving my husband, my in-laws, two dogs, a camper and myself-I will have a link to DG’s site here on Friday, and I hope you all can come by.

Well, I might have to get up early to help my husband get out of the driveway tomorrow-we don’t have school, but he’s going to try to make it in to work, so goodnight everyone.

16 comments:

  1. I know I feel the same way. Although, my body is starting to feel older too. I hate it, my mind is still so young and playful. I hope that part never changes. Just know you are not alone!

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  2. how fun, congrats on your guest post, can't wait to read it!

    I know what you mean about change, it's hard in the middle of it, but I like how when it's over, you can look back to see how you grew.

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  3. SO far I don't mind getting older. I like the lines on my face and thankfully I am blond so the white hair actually looks good, except when it is humid and it gets all frizzy :-(

    I like to rearrange - it is like a fresh start. As a kid, I was always re-organizing everything.

    Thanks for the link - I will hop on over to the site and be sure to read your post tomorrow! How fun to be a guest poster!!!

    And thank you so much for "getting" my post yesterday - I have such a dirty mind (worked with men all my life) I felt awful all day that nobody got it. The post tanked.

    I thought my husband got it, but he didn't either!!!

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  4. I can't wait for your guest post. It's all queued up and ready to go for 6:00 AM EST tomorrow!

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  5. I feel exactly the same way about all of it. Even down to getting a new couch. I still liked my ratty old one better. I'll certainly be checking Friday:) I'll have to check out the DG blog too, I haven't been there yet.

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  6. I used to hate change but I'm starting to embrace it! I can't wait to read your guest post at DG's place!

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  7. I know what you mean, Susan. I always feel like that little girl is still here with me. I'm amazed at how fast the last 20 years went. I'm struggling a bit with where I'm at now too. I think good change is almost here for both of us.

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  8. Congrats on the guest post opportunity. How exciting! I understand your fear of change. I'm an oddball too. I have a hard time doing new things, but I can stand for things to be the same. It drives me crazy.

    I'll be looking for your post on Friday!

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  9. Although I'm only 27, I know exactly what you mean. My mother and I were chatting about this very topic the other night. She's 57 and she still feels as though she's still in her 20's-it's the the exterior that changes for most of us, unfortunately, and it doesn't match what's on the inside!

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  10. I'm glad to hear that a lot of you feel the same about change the way I do. See, this is why I blog...

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  11. I realized that I needed to adapt better to change the first time I saw square gum and candy machines at a store entrance. I realized that soon they'd all be square and the little rounded ones would be gone forever and immediately got upset. Then I realized that I was getting upset about the shape of a candy machine. I still have work to do on myself, but at least I'm seeing what I'm doing now!

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  12. Not so keen on change myself, although I always think I am, then when it comes I feel strangely displaced. Look forward to reading your guest post

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  13. Loved your post over at DG's today! God bless you for having lived through that experience.

    I am so fearful of change it's almost debilitating. Logically, I know that it will eventually be for the best, but I literally feel sick and sweaty over it. For example, I am looking to make a career change at the moment and I'm beyond worried over it.

    Getting older is just the worst injustice ever! I turn 32 next month, but I swear I'm still 16 mentally. That's probably not a good thing.

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  14. I don't like change either....I like to get into a routine and stick to it. That is the only way I feel in control. Hence....my blog:) I am going to read your guest post right now!

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  15. Hey Susan! I suppose it depends on when the change happens, whether you are ready for it or not. I love my life right now: although I still have a lot of deadlines, I am now working for myself and it feels good! :) I'll drop by your guest blog in a bit. Exciting! Am happy you just jumped right in :)

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  16. I can't say I'm always good with change either. Especially when someone else is the one making my changes. I'm going to check out your guest post. :)

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